Katherine-ism

You must take pleasure in pain inflicted by people who can’t seem to get a life. They live to criticize every inch of you, when in fact, every little flaw they see hits them with pangs of jealousy for the reason that even if you’re a little stained, they hopelessly ask themselves: "How the hell does she make it look just perfect?"

This quote is very timely. Thanks Kuya Bong. =) Arlene, Pj, Thea, Elaine and maybe a few others knew what’s this about. I’m totally over it. I don’t work for them. Disguising their blames for their so called concerns. Blech! Who are they kidding? Who do they think they are in the first place? Playing gods or whatever believing they know better. I’ve(We’ve) had enough of their emotional bullying. I(We) won’t take sh*t from you anymore. Tada!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

Let me share this beautiful poem I read somewhere, sometime ago. It is titled "One Little Rose."

I’d rather have one little rose from a friend than to have the choicest flowers when life has come to an end;

I’d rather hear a pleasant word in kindness to me, than flattery when my heart is still and my life has ceased to be;

I’d rather see a loving smile from friends whom I know are true, than tears shed around my casket when this world I bid ‘Adieu’;

So, bring me all your flowers today, whether pink, or white or red; I’d rather have one blossom now, than a truck load when I’m dead.

Just the thought of him makes me smile. Naloloka na ata ako. Awhile ago i was so depressed that instead of going straight at my place i went to Thea’s muna. But then Arlene’s having her siesta as usual and Thea have to go back sa campus. Which left me alone pa rin so i took a nap na rin. When Thea came back she needs to read her handouts naman and Arlene was preparing to go to class. Pero it somehow let me forget of my SP and reminded me of him. So im not that too depressed anymore. Kinikilig and depressed ng konti at the same time. Haha… I really live up to my im-a-mixture-of-opposites statement.

Its been a month and I still got no SP. The others were done with their proposals and are already starting theirs. Waaah… The truth, im super clueless as to how im going to search for a problem. Im too dyahe to ask Sir Panopio for a problem because thats my task. I feel so bobo tuloy. My problem is still not having a problem. Magxmas break na! Harump! Im having a ‘depressdepressan’ attack again. Maybe i should be focusing on the things/people who makes me smile. Like the chocolate cake i just ate. Yum yum… the banana shake. Slurp… Naglilihi ata ko cause a day can’t pass without those two. Hmmm…

Ooops! I got to go. How could I forget?! Ciao…

Twenty Lines for Twenty People

i feel so down last night that eventhough i’m sick i still went to nyoky’s. me and my stupid mouth! why is it that i always have difficulty expressing myself? abnormal! i say what i dont mean. and the worst thing is i say the exact opposite of what i want to say. blaahhh… im havin a hard time smiling. i dont know if my sickness is the real cause of why im feeling weak today or its the heartbreak of last night. ooops… i said it here! i cant believe it. he might read this or maybe not. hope he dont. anyway, i can manage to stifle a smile now because of an old friend. thanks gabby! mishu dre..

the sem dat was…

i passed my math120! I SURVIVED!!! buti nln, i got d passing grade agad and didn’t have to do d reconsideration part pa. i studied for it pa rin, jst in case i didn’t passd (as usual, being d pessimistic me). mgnda na mgpasigurado na ak.

phew!! what a sem! 70% of it was totally unnerving. iv had such a hard time with my acads. so many things didnt turned out the way i thot it wud turn out (iv used dis line b4 *math121.1*). tsk… tsk… poor me! theres just too many of them all at the same time. aarrgh… hagardness to the max! but ive discovered somthing it. he he… dressing up is actually good for me whenever i feel kaba or hagard. he he… although my mind’s in a whirl i still look good or at the least presentable. thats wat kept me sane during those weeks.

and wats d 30%? PURE FUN! of cors, wid my sipnayan pips. groupstudy/bonding na rin, nth times na lunch or dinner or merienda together, tambay sa lobby ng math bldg, movie marathons, jamming using lauro’s songbook, table tennis, pasyal sa freedom park, videoke, and ang all-time-fav SWIMMING. ha ha… wers inom? wel, iba kmi e. we do make inom nga pero minimal lang and konti ln kmi umiinom, cla pla. i stopd e. mg 6 months na nga. ang galing! but i do go to gimiks for its bonding purpose.

home at last!

its bin a wk na pla since i came here. ang bilis nmn. la pa ko makabuluhang ng2wa. pero ders still time pa nmn before d start of classes again. kya pa yan… hopefully, magwa ko ung mga naisip ko gawin…

my summer plans!!

i only have vague ideas on how i will spend my 2 months vacation. make it 1 month nln kc its d lst wk of april n pla.

§ get a summer job at mtv phils [tsk tsk... too late]

i wasn’t able to because of my kaengotan sa math120. i tried to make habol pero i was too late na daw. sayang!!! syempre, hello?! mtv un tlgng mdmi gs2 mgwork dun. and d old saying “d early bird catches d worm” rili applies.

§ clean my room [half done]

my momentos from high school (u knw d pics frm hs events, d everyday notes frm my frnds, and kun anik2 pa), my old clothes na more than a yr ko nang di sinusuot, my magazines, my books (personal, hs and college), etc. iv bin putting it off for 3 summers na. wud it b 4 kya?

§ take formal driving lessons [on the process pln]

like d previous one, iv bin also putting dis off for 3 summers thinking i wud be able to learn from friends lng. but heck no. i was wrong. Either I give up on my frnd for teaching me (peace po tau) or dey give up on teaching me. i easily get taranta kc. a friend always say dat everytime he teaches me minus 3 yrs ng 3 yrs ang buhay nya. i wud rili lyk to learn but then again does driving like me? I always have this thing wid liking things and things not liking me back. hmmm…

§ do at least 5 laps everyday [religiously doing it]

back in lb ive realized how ive bin taking 4 granted d pool hir. kc back der we have to pay for entrance fee pa. ang saya! unlimited swimming without d entrance fee. oopss… msabotage kya nito ang pagpapataba ko? kc db its also an exercise? lht b ng exercise nk2pyat? kelangan ko mgpataba kc 4 sure pgbalik ko lb p2yat ak. bka skeleton na by november. il thnk of a soln to dis asap. if I eat ng marami and sleep ng marami den swim ng konti ln e t2ba na ko? try ko nga tom…

§ organize my journal [half done]

d past 2 months ang daming nangyari na ndi ko nasulat i just hope dat i still clearly remember all of dem. now is d tym to do all my writing. since updated na blog ko, dpt pti ang journal ko.

§ go to the beach [malapit na =)]

ul never fully appreciate d summer if ur not going to the beach. kya nmn, jst lyk d past summers dis summer is no exemption. i cnt w8 to ride a jetski again. wohoo…

§ have a summer escapade with my friends before d summer ends [malapit na rin =) =)]

i actually hve 2 ube (ultimate bonding experience) dis summer. d question is… do i hve d bucks to join dem? tsk tsk… pero dba nga? kpg gusto, mrami paraan. he he…

                                                           written from home

pre- holy week

d wk b4, i did an oral exam in math156 kc i didn’t passd d final exam. nobody passd nmn so prof panopio gave us anoder chance. i was so bitter sa math156 ko kc im exempted dpat. my attendance’s perfect but wen i checked wid my prof he said i hve 2 absences. nk2iirata ln kc un iba exemptd pero dey don’t deserve it. yes, present nga cla during groupstudy or probset sessions but deyr only deyr waiting for d answer. d man lang mgeffort na magsagot. mgaling ln kumopya. in short, kakapalan ng mukha. der is a thin line between mdiskarte and mkpal e. cguro deyr thinking dat its diskarte. anyway, i believe in karma. if not now, for sure in d future deyl get wat dey deserve. aaargh! biternes! thank God, i passed my math156. bka mgprotesta ko kun i flunked it. buti nln i passed. isa na lng and my sem is over. but wait ang isang un ay ang aking math120. i was hoping i got d full 58 points and passed d course kc i was also hoping dat sir lawas wud move d passing grade to 55. but then wen i got my grade i only got 53 in d exam so even if he moved d passing grade to 55, im stil 4. tsk tsk… pero dat tym npktamis ng 4 pra skin. i almost thot il never make it.

my emotions is a mixture of eveyrything. im very nervous (for my grades) and at d same time im enjoying myself wid my sipnayan pips. we ol thot dat after d semender, wla na. pero wait ders more… yep yep… POSTSEMENDERS… as in wid “S”! (1) tambay sa lobby at picture picture, (2) lunch/merienda sa irri at of cors picture picture, (3) videoke at again picture picture, (4) movie marathon, wlng picture kc nktulog ak, (5) biglang-naisipang-swimming at pde bang d2 pa mwala ang picture picture.:)

holy week

monday- i took my exam in math120. grabe, like in d finals i almost didn’t sleep to make sure i understand everything and im prepared to take d removals. grabe, I almost cried wen i saw fritz and joyce sa math bldg. i was so kaba dat my carelessness wil get d best out of me ulit. wen i took d exam, i made sure my arithmetic’s are all correct and d number of pages. Hindi na binack-to-back ni sir lawas un questionnaire. he he… after it, I think Iv reached d passing mark but at d back of my mind im thinking “wag kang magbilang ng sisiw hanggat hindi pa napipisa”. Sir lawas said pa na he’d only give consideration dun sa may at least 55% at ipapasagot nya ung ndi nasagutan sa removals. pag nasagot pasado, pag ndi… un na! 1 wk pa b4 un result w/c is understandable nmn kc holy wk na.

tuesday- i cleaned my room at lb yan ha. and packed my things na rin pra sa paguwi ko. but my family’s going to spend our holy wk sa caliraya kaya ive decided to stay in lb nln and w8 for dem to pick me up sa lb since on d way to caliraya nmn.

wednesday- i slept all day. binawi ko ung mga puyat ko nun finals wk.

thursday- its 3pm na wen my family arrived sa lb. i woke up early pa nmn kc i thot dating cla b4 lunch as dey usually do. we went to sta cruz muna para magmano sa relaives ng nanay ko der den aftr we rented dis super cute na bhay sa caliraya. but since gabi na kmi dumating at pagod na natulog na kami.

friday- we woke up early pra maglibot sa caliraya at we found dis spot kun san pde kmi magcamping. Ngcamping kmi d whole day but b4 kmi umwi ngjetski muna kmi. ang saya! ung speed at ung pagtalsik ng tubig sa mukha. ang sarap! sandali nga ln kc biyernes santo.

saturday- we went to lucena. at since addict sa swimming. nagcheck-in kmi sa diamond hotel. d nice thing is nsa lucena mga pamangkin nmin sa pinsan (rodney, ralph, jm). iba tlg pg may bata, mas masaya. but dat nyt naospital nanay ko for her migraine and gastro-sumthin.

sunday- wer supposed to go home na (cla pla, i stil hv to go to lb to get my grade in math120) but nanay’s stil at d hosp so it was moved d nxt day. my tatay said nasanto santo daw kmi. tsk tsk… buti nln, its nothin serious.

                                                                                                                                                    ***written from home***

march is my birth month so since my childhood days im always excited na magmarch na but with what happened lst month im starting to hate it na.* problem sets, reports, exams, etc. imagine, kulang na lang e magcamping kmi sa math cafeteria. from 9am to 5pm as in wlang labasan just for a prob set/takehome exam. once pa nga, ive only left the caf to take an exam in math120. my break is an exam, hows dat! to know how my march went on den read on…

pre wk- ngexm ko ng 2 beses on the very 1st day. ha ha… math120 and math135. tsk tsk… then nun weekend ive learned so many things about life. wat it is? sa akin nln un. ive learned from a very sad experience. but still im thankful na rin dat it hapend. wel, dats life sabi nga nila. u lose some, u gain some.

1st wk- math156 report lang and its quite madali. isa pa, tues un. so i hv d rest of the wk free.

2nd wk- a free wk! but I didn’t know dat aftr it wud be such a hell. ayayay!!!

3rd wk- lst wk of classes na! yippee! but a celebration is too damn early pa pla. i spoke too soon. end of classes doesn’t mean end of sch load. haaaay… another 2 exams wid d same course pa rin. plus a concept paper in math103 and a probset in math135. u wud think dat takehome exams are great coz deyr take home. i disagree! takehome exams are always as in always super difficult esp with our course dats more of theories and not formula driven. if ever ders a computational section in our courses it wudnt be given in an exam esp if its takehome. wel, okay. sometimes dey do but it is very very minimal ln so even if maperfect mo, u stil need to do the proving stuffs to get at least 60%. buti nln, i hve d 3in1 party to look forward at d end of d wk. ive seen my 2 mentors pa, mona and adon. sna by nxt yr im alredi one of dem, an alumnae.

4th wk- finals wk! nyak!! Math103 takehome exam, math135 finals, math156 takehome exam (on my bday!!! grabe!!!), math103 finals and math120 finals.** u can say i am fully booked for d wk. ang saklap! me and my sipnayan buddies also held our semender (we rented a private pool at… wer else? pansol). i almost didn’t come because i thot i don’t deserve it because of wat hapend in my math120 and i also had a hard time wid d finals in math156. buti nln, i changed my mind w/c is very unusual for me in those kind of situations. and… i do deserve it pla. =) ___________________________________

*hate it na borrowed from gayle’s “i hate dem na”

**math120 finals i almost didnt sleep studying for it just to make sure il pass it. ive even sacrificed my math103 for it. wen the time for the exam i was so sure its just so easy so nagtataka ko why my classmates having a hard time. i finished 30 mins early but i hate passing my exam early so i checked my answers to consume d time. in that 30 mins, sir lawas allowed us to open our notes so I was able to correct some of my kaengotan. and poof! kokocrunch! wat happend next was unexpctd. wen its time to pass the bluebk (sir lawas instructed us to fold and then insert the questionare in the blubk), i got a glimpse of d backpage of d questionnaire. at d backpage was d remaining 42 points of my exam. stupid me! even if (at un ay npklaking if) i answered all the items in the front correctly im still 2 points short to pass the course. nanlambot ako ng sobra buti der r sipnayan pips at the room nxt door. i think jm read my face and he said, "ano iiyak k nnmn?" at ayun na nga. he he… my minds so messed up i cudnt think straight. dey told me to tell sir lawas wat happened and ask him if he cud let me take kahit isang number lang but sir lawas said it wud be unfair. and anyway, hed already decided to give a 4 to those who got at least 50. i was relieved but at the same time tensed. although im confident wid all my answers im not sure if il be able to get at least 50 out of 58. lagi ko pinapahamak ng simple arithmetic. eventhough my process is correct my numbers arent. bummer!